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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Well, its that time again. Time for school to begin yet another year of high school hell. I am so glad its my last year. No more homework, no more stupid jocks, no more insane teachers, and most important of all, NO MORE SUCKY CLASSES. You have no clue how much I want the end of the year to be here...now.
It is my senior year. For that, I am thankful. Hopefully I can do well this year, make good grades, good choices, and maybe even some good friends to help me along the way. I have been slacking in that field here lately. HEY! Speaking of field, Its band season! Man-o-man am I a band nerd...well, actually no... Im a guard nerd lol. Im so excited that its here agian. Time for me to "strutt my stuff" so to speak. I love football games. Minus the close minded idots that sometims make fun of me...never to my face mind you. But oh well, Screw tham. Its a new year, and im not gonna take any bull from anyone. Im over being the little geek that everyone walks all over. Im gonna stand up for myself this year, be proud of what I do and who I do it for. Heres a hint, its not you. JK.
I dont know where this summer has gone dang'it. I have worked all freakin summer, and for what? Not money, Im most definitely broke untill friday. I guess I worked to keep busy. And boy was I... Im gonna miss this summer. Even though it was boring, and nothing happened ... I had a few fun events, but thats all. lol. Summers like this make me wonder what school year round would be like. I bet it would be a lot more fun that this. Less down time, more breaks, and I, Personally, wouldnt have to worry about the fact that i forgot more than 99% of the stuff I learned last school year. Oh well...
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I have so much stuff I want to get out, because as much as I hate to admit it, this IS actually very theraputic, writing in this blog... I think it helps me get over things quicker...maybe I should update more often...or not. My mood right now is hard to describe... Im tired, sad, depressed, frusterated, and physically and emotionally drained of life. I need to snap out of it, but whenever I get a break from one thing, something else pops up. It is a never ending cycle of misfortunes. I need more happy days in my life. More heartfelt jokes and funny stories and stuff that teenagers should be up to. Maybe i just need to vent, and I think i have...some... im dure there will be more to come. But, as for now...
Im off to cry myself to sleep... I'll update later. Maybe.
~Shane
Posted at 09:34 pm by hottpeppa15
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Band camp was great this year. Hot, Sweaty, Stressful, and hard. But for the most part, I actually had an Ok time. the seniors won against all other classes in the dogeball game. senior storys were a blast, I told some funny things from years past. AND, I met lots of hot new freshman lol. Theres a new girl named Brenna that moved to Maryville from Kansas, and were like totally friends now. its cool... She reminds me of another friend that ... well... stopped talking to me because I didnt go to prom with her. Oh well, Lets hope this friendship dosent come to a screeching hault as well. Haha.
School is only a few days awya from starting. Im not looking foward to it at all. But, it is my senior year. So I should make the best of it. Other than that, my life is back to Buisness as usual. Work, work, sleep, and guard.
Im off to swim with lauren.
Later days,
Shane
Posted at 05:11 pm by hottpeppa15
Thursday, July 14, 2005
WOO HOO! I am about to have a heart palpatation! I am the 2004-2005 Maryville High School Guard Capain! I am so totally psyched! I want to thank Saundra, Leza first of all for giving me the chance to make them proud, Mr.Delozier and Mr. Hayden for being awesome band directors, Jana, Mr.T, Josh for about making me wet myself during the interview...JK, Mom Rachel Julio and ALL Of my guardies that have supported me through it all. Without you, I would have NEVER made it this far. I love you all. Sereiously, I do. I have so many AWESOME things planned for this guard. I cant wait for us to stretch our wings! Lets make this the best field season this town has EVER seen.
With all my heart.
~Shane
Posted at 10:04 pm by hottpeppa15
Sunday, July 10, 2005
my summer social life thus far...
Haha, thats a funny joke. I have no time for a sicial life...work work work. 24-7. I will be so glad when school starts back! Ugh.
Posted at 03:59 am by hottpeppa15
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
RESA IS OUT OF TOWN AND I MISS HER!!! AHHHHH! Come back home Resa- Cup!
~Shane and Rachel*
*This is not Rachels blog. She simply made this entry to express her admiration and miss-ness for her bestest friend Resa-Marie Ann Byrd. Posted at 12:04 am by hottpeppa15
I have had a very wierd day today. I woke up late b/c I was so dang tired from working 13.56 hours yesterday at subway. I was late for work at HobbLobb. Eh, oh well. I got there today at like...9ish when I was supposed to be there at 8 wvwn though I wasent supposed to be there untill 10. But thats not the point...
When I was there, I started to think about a lot of random things, and I was proud of myself for using my noggin while at the workplace lol. I was thinking about how much heavy lifting I do there for $6.50 an hour and then I noticed * without trying to sound concieted * I am a real hard worker! I mean, I put in 45+ hours a week at Hobby Lobby, and around 25 at Subway. Yeah, Its good money...but I HATE working. PERRIOD!!! When I get all old and famous, I want to work 10 hours a week and get paid like im working 100,000,000,099. ( Dont know where the 9's came from...but I had to throw them in. The 0's were hurting my eyes. lol. ANYWAY...My back hurts and im sore all over from working and working and working some more and then going to guard. So...im off 2 bed. sweet dreams to you all!
~Shane
Posted at 12:00 am by hottpeppa15
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Emergency room (ER) aka hell on Earth
THE PHONE KEEPS RINGING
THE OBNOXIOUS LITTLE TONE
PEOPLE ARE PRAYING
BUT IM HERE - ALL ALONE
DO YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYING
OR HAVE I NOT GROWN
THE OLD MAN IS CRYING
HAS HE REAPED WHAT HE'S SEWN
I ASKED YOU A QUESTION
THE FAT MAN SHOUTED
A GIRL IN THE CORNER
SAT THERE AND POUTED
SHE MISSES HER DADDY
THE MOTHER SAID WITH DISPAIR
HE FELL FOUR STORIES
THE WIND THROUGH HIS HAIR
THEY DONT THINK HE'LL MAKE IT
THE LADY MUMBLED
HER DAUGHTER HELD BACK A TEAR
SHE SAT THERE AND MUMBLED
JUST ACROSS THE ROOM
A MAN SAT ALONE
HE SAT THERE ANXIOUSLY
STARING AT THE PHONE
HE JUST SAT THERE
NOT MOVING AN INCH
BUT THE ODOR HE HAD
WAS QUITE A FOUL STENCH
A GROUP OF TEENS SAT IN THE CORNER
LIKE A SMALL PRAYER GROUP
SOMETHING HAPPENED TO A FRIEND
HE DIDNT RE-COUP
THE MOOD WAS PLAIN ANGUISH
THEY ALL WERE SO SAD
I HEARD A VOICE SAY
WHO WILL TELL DAD
I HATE THIS COLD PLACE
THIS PLACE OF UNFAIR DEATH
THE LOOK ON HER FACE
SHE HAS HAD NO REST
IM GETTING TIRED
AND A BIT OVERWHELMED
WHAT ELSE CAN I DO
EVERY SOUL ON THE PLANET
MUST SOMEDAY FACE THE END
BUT IF ONE COULD
IF ONE WOULD
COULD THEY FIND A WAY TO BEND
A WAY TO BEND THE LAWS OF NATURE
A WAY TO MAKE IT RIGHT
A WAY FOR ALL THE ILL
TO WIN THE FINAL FIGHT
THE PEOPLE IN THIS ROOM
NONE OF THEM DESERVE THIS
I WISH THERE WERE AT HOME
SAFE- AND IN BLISS
BUT FOR SOME REASON
SOMETHING BROUGHT THEM HERE
I SIT OBSERVING EVERYTHING
NEVER CLOSING AN EAR
I WANT TO BE OUT OF HERE
I JUST WANT TO GO HOME
I WANT THINGS TO BE NORMAL
I JUST WANT TO ROAM
BUT THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN
IM HERE
STILL HERE
WAITING
BY THE TELEPHONE
~ SA '05
Posted at 10:38 pm by hottpeppa15
My Grandfather fell and broke his hip. I have been in Chattanooga for the longest time pretty much babysitting my grandmother because I dont want her to be alone. For all of those who care, He had to have a partial hip replacement surgery and he is now in stable condition. He will be in the ICU untill mid-week then be moved to a room in the hospital for a few days before he goes off to the rehab place. He's old and im having a wierd time adjusting to all of the emotions that are running through my head. All of the "what if's" and "Why's" keep echoing in my empty skull. I cant handle this, Im just a kid. I wish everyone would stop treating me like an adult and let me live a little. Im tired of the stress, im sick of the waitingroom, and the phonecalls from relitives that dont give a crap. Its all too much for me to handle on the inside...but I have to stay strong for everyone else. Afterall, that is my job...right?
Posted at 10:08 pm by hottpeppa15
Just to catch you all up...lol
hello again to all of you! I have had a jam-packed past few months and there never seemed to be time for me to update my blog. so, without further delay...here goes.
SCHOOL IS OUT...YAY!
Summer is here...WAY YAY!
I have two jobs...NOT SO YAY!
Im single...Most definitely not so yay.
Yeah, so ... now that its summer... Im supposed to be having like, all kinds of super cool fin right? No, shane and fun in a single sentence is a joke within itself. I have two jobs now. One is still at Hobby Lobby, and job number two is back at Subway. Oh the joy...right? oh well.
Oh hey! I went on vacation to Hilton Head Island last month. Everything there was so perfect. The weather, The beach, the food, the pool, the resort, all supurb. I had such a great time, despite the fact that i went with my dad... in the week that i was there, i think my hate for him tripled. he was crazy...But in the end, it was the trip that mattered to me, the chance to get away from work, school, school people, home, and maryville haha. I found a lot of cool sea shells and some drift wood and some other cool things like T-shirts and neclaces and junk like that.
so, is it just me or did these past few weeks--no--months of summer just fly by?! i hate the idea of starting school back in August. At least im almost done. My senior year... Im sure theres lots of fun to come. Bwahaahaa. All in all, My life has been pretty boring, no social life, just work and guard. It kind of sucks really. I want to go swim in my nice big, deep, cool, and clean pool, so...yeah, ill finish this later...
SHANE
Posted at 09:57 pm by hottpeppa15
Sunday, April 10, 2005
dot dot dot...the saga continues...dot dot dot
As many of you have seen for yourself, I’ve been bad about updating my blog. The reason for the lack of entries is that I’ve vowed to focus my creative energy (which includes blogging – I’m not just pooing these puppies out my arse, people) to the greater good of mankind. These past few weeks have been so complicated. I am like almost stressed to the max. JR English is plotting to secretly kill me...and it is quite successful. Work seems to gradually increase in difficulty, and Guard is now over. I have no release now, guard was my ultimate chillage. I guess I could start smoking...Or not lol. No, now that I think about it, that just wouldnt work...I just remembered that i'm allergic. *ANYWAY* I found this song that I think is quite interesting in the way the lyrics actually fit with everyday life. (**This is the part where you say, "WTF MATE...I COULD CARE LESS YOU DUMBARSE!" and skip to the next paragraph...**) lalala, here it is...
2am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.
Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just a day he said down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it
Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe
There's a light at each end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
2am and I'm still awake writing a song
If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breathe
Just breathe, ohho breathe.
`Anyway, thats my new favorite song...I love it. And I love the artist as well. It makes me happy.
Well , continuing on the journey of the past few weeks...My birthday was on Tuesday, (April 5). I turned the big 17. This year was quite excelent gift-wise. I got a new CD?Radio player for my car from J-dawg, Cash from Dads side of the family, Gift cards and a Fossil Watch from Mom, and a Louis Vuttan (SP) wallet/ billfold thing from Hope. There were lots of calls that day...It was actually kind of annoying...granted, there were some people that I wanted to talk to, but others, the ones that called obsessivly...were a little over the top. Just lucky I guess... but over all, I hada great time.
Well, it is now Sunday the 10th at 12:19 in the morning, and due to the excruciating pain I endured at work today, I think i am going to go relax in my nice squishey bed and cuddle with a pillow. Thanks for listening...
Later days!
-=-YeCkUm-=-
~Shane
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Posted at 12:23 am by hottpeppa15
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